so last weeks day off went by so fast... and im just anticipating for my only day off coming up on thursday!!

the brunch with lucy was great~ we went to M Henry... found it on metromix and we decided to be adventurious and give it try~ yummmmmy! then somehow her car's gps not acting normal... so we had to drive it to the shop. and then... on the way to home depot to buy airfilters.... her tire went flat... gosh, i mean, how many misfunction can her car get in one day?? so we had to find a tire shop... wait for them to change it... and by the time its done too late to go to navy pier... but anyway we were planning to go biking late afternoon... so i went home and changed... went to meet up with her friend... and went biking by lakeshore... was sooo nice and refreshing!!

and which day was it... i dun remember... went to watch 'war of the worlds' with nam... interesting movie... not satisfied with ending tho...

me got big plans for the next couple of days... gona be real busy hang out with friends!! and thats exactly the way i want it... 

"I don't miss him... I miss who I thought he was..."

i can't talk about this anymore. there's just nothing left to say.... i hope. please... let this just be the end.

day off

hiphop class was amazing... sweating out all my energy...

looking forward to brunch with lucy tomorrow ^^

it feels soooo good to be out again. well i mean out as in out clubbing and dancing and drinking! =) thursday night, got home from work.. was expecting a usual watch-tv-and-go-on-internet-dork night, but got a phone call from gary to go hang out at sound bar! so off i went, met up with aileen, went in there, VIP style, found all the guys cozied up in the VIP section! seems like theyve already 'hooked up' with new bartenters... getting cheap drinks and all that! cant believe they moved up so fast since Apartment. anywayz.... down three-double liquid cocaine straight... and got me to tipsy mode. so there i was again, cellphoning nonstop... and the rest... shhhhh

Friday night... preplanned ladies night out. first time when the peninsula-azian-chicks hang out together. me novel aileen lily karen michelle rachel jessica chrysse... and some other random guys haha. started out at Le Passage... snobbish doorman and expensive alcohol... music was kicking in the beginning but they turned it into techno and we moved on... walked a block to Level... they were playing techno too and the place was empty. So we all piled into the cab, destination: Sound bar, since gary's gang is there. so we got in line, while i was on the phone fighting with adrian, and somehow half of our group paid and went in, while my half of the group decided against it, so we strolled over(tipsyly haha) to Buzz. Hiphop music, nice crowd, so we stayed on and danced. Johnny called and came over to meet up... by 4am we were all pretty tired so he took aileen home and took me home~~ ending the long long long night....

woke up with a hangover... haha

i wanna watch fireworks tomorrow!!!!!

yup... time to update...

got alot of things on my mind... but not all are to be shared with the world... or whoever reads my xanga hahaha.

im gonna do something stupid again tomorrow.... yup its stupid but im still gonna do it cause its just wut ive got to do... or else i'll just keep thinking about it... need to get it done...

work... its ok... not the most encouraging and fulfilling job at the moment... but as one of my colleague told me, this is just a job, its not ur life, and do wut u have to do in there, and once u get out, forget it about it. yup, exactly, im sorry, but ive been busting my ass like almost 60hrs a week, and not getting recognition on my efforts, and im so sick her and her bs. ugh.

chris left chicago...

everytime u leave

im left here

feeling empty inside, hollow

like uve take another piece of me 

again

and again...

i keep holding on

no matter how hopeless it seems

cause life is too short

and i dun want to have any regrets...

ha

but wut if this, at the end, is the biggest regret of my life?

too late to turn back though... and i cant stop...